Michael Jawn
It is my wish that everyone have the opportunity to live a fulfilled and enriched existence. It is my belief that it is our birthright to know the love of our own hearts, to feel the joy of our own bodies, to explore the potential of our own minds, and to know the peace of our own souls.
I am here simply to offer what I have, what I am, what I have been designed to do. In doing and being what comes naturally to me, I show up in this world playing many different roles.
A teacher for those who seek knowledge,
A guide for those who prefer to be shown,
A counsellor for those needing support,
A coach for those who benefit from exercises or a practice,
A mentor for those who could use a model,
A messenger for listening ears,
A facilitator for those who unfurl in the open space,
A reminder for those who have forgotten.
Depending on where you are or what you are seeking, I tend to show up in a combination of many of these expressions.
Michael's Story
Blessed by a loving and supportive container in my early life, I carry an immanent experience of my Divine state, supported by a visceral and cellular memory of what it means to be free, happy, healthy, and whole. However, as my life moved on, that loving container seemed to erode in many ways, and it became clear to me that the world I lived in was not designed to truly educate, empower, and awaken us. I began to question everything from a very young age, spending most of my time in my mind contemplating and attempting to understand the world and how to protect myself from abusive friends, bullies at school, and dominating authority figures. Every attempt I made to adapt to societal structures felt forced and fraudulent, creating more dissonance and suffering. Identities came and went as I sought desperately to find where I could truly fit in. Although much of my life was filled with beauty, friendship, and joy in many ways, it was always paired with a consistent state of alienation and fear. In my teens, I found playing music as a refuge, helping me develop some sense of self-esteem and hope through playing in bands and the camaraderie that came with it. By my early twenties, after years of seeking different avenues to regain the wholeness I knew as a young child, my inner dialogue was evolving in intensity and negativity, to the point where I felt I may not be able to go on if something didn’t change. The psychological torture of my own fractured mental state compelled me to seek a deeper truth within, and the sheer terror of the unknown after death kept me from leaving this world. Through no real choice of my own, my mind led me into the darkest, most abandoned parts of my psyche, uncovering the history of all my unprocessed fears and pain. Being willing to die, I was primed to truly let go of any remaining hopes and ambitions I found. I felt fully the incomplete parts of my youth, and analyzed the nature of my fears and attachments. Leaving no stone unturned, I found myself revealing and releasing every aspect of my conditioned consciousness to the point of total self-dissolution. I was left as nothing and nobody, and for the first time in my life as a self-aware being, I felt truly free and full of love — a love that appeared indestructible. Through this process, I was shown the true nature of my being, along with a way of living that would sustain this awareness. My life immediately changed, and my sole intention became to remain aware of who and what I truly am. I continued to observe my behaviours and my thoughts and continually asked myself, are they a reflection of what is really true, and if they weren’t they began to fall away effortlessly. My entire life now remains a practice in staying aligned with what this “Michael being” is authentically called to, as he works through his remaining karmic material, all the while sharing whatever love and truth he can to facilitate true awareness in others and the materializing of a world reflective of our true home.